Here’s lookin’ at you, kid.

Ξ June 4th, 2010 | → | ∇ Moo |

So once again I get in the funk where I think about others and their relationships. The stories I hear of others’ problems and setbacks, of life’s little journey’s and how others seem to get to the point where they are at.

Honestly people fascinate me, but on the other hand I’m a bit disappointed. It is some bit of phenomenon that I can’t quite explain. I get not necessarily, but certainly annoyed at stupidity and at some times feel some sort of superiority towards others for it. But at the same time I feel this act makes me feel left out and somehow I am envious at others for being happy. Happy because they have someone to go home with and really open up and share their heart with. Me? I have myself. I often catch myself running off on some long conversation because I am trying to troubleshoot something and find the next answer in my long saga in life.

Regardless, I’m working on it. I’ve stated my plan before, but my solid goal is to find a new life entirely. I almost want to start over. Do a solid do-over so I can obtain what I want out of life. But at the same time I know things and have lessons learned that I don’t feel I could do without. For instance I graduated from college three years ago in Computer Engineering. It was a tough field and a tough degree. There were times where I was about to give up and not see it through to the end. Sure it took me an extra year, but I finished it outright and was on my merry way in life. Then the economy took a turn for the worst and decided to fuck my plans up. There lies my problems entirely in adapting to new challenges.

I’ve been overweight for the latter part of my life and I despise the fact that I am this way. Regardless I need to take a look at it and move on and make the best of it / change for the better. I’m making a conscious effort at changing – No joke. I find myself slipping every once and a while, but to be honest I just need to take the plunge and MOVE ON.

To quote Bruce Lee: “If you always put limits on what you can do, physical or anything else, it’ll spread over into the rest of your life. It’ll spread into your work, into your morality, into your entire being. There are no limits. There are plateaus, but you must not stay there, you must go beyond them. If it kills you, it kills you. A man must constantly exceed his level.”

My life has included several things that I thoroughly enjoy. The fact is, I enjoy filming – I enjoy narrating a story. Even if I wouldn’t get the chance for that, I enjoy the filming part and the editing part of the process. Video production is definitely a career I could be a part of, but I don’t have the slightest idea of how to get there. I have a knack for technology and if given a black box with a number of connections and specifics that the device should do, most likely I can come up with a way to connect it. Call it a gift, but I call it an inherent trait of mine.

With filming and photography comes the fact that I appreciate works of art through film. Movies are more of an obsession and I can honestly say I’m a bit of a fanatic. The epitome of the couch potato is what I would describe myself. I’m a fan of anywhere of the silent Buster Keaton and Charlie Chaplin talkies to the modern day epics that we see today. I’ve seen plenty of films from the 40s/50s and 60s/70s on my own curiosity and enjoyed them thoroughly. I’d say that films from those periods are a greater part of my movie collection in general. “Touch of Evil” would probably be my favorite film noir film. I can’t say I’ve only stuck to US films either. Antonioni, Fellini, Fritz Lang, or Goddard made amazing movies for their time. Movies that leave you with the sense that you’d just blown your mind. L’Avventura is one of these movies. You watch it and are amazed at how well composed the shots are. Sure it is a movie with a lack of narrative, but the simple fact that you are watching an amazing work of art just leaves me speechless every time I see it. Move on from this period to the 60s/70s and you open an entire genre that I can never get enough of. Honestly I should stop talking about movies in this part of my post because I could go on forever. Let me just end saying that for sentimental reasons, “Princess Bride” is my favorite movie of all time.

Then there is the part of my life of what I graduated with. I thought that engineering would be a good fit for me. I enjoyed math growing up and loved science and the fact of explaining the word around me and the fact that I have the ability to create I found absolutely fascinating. Move ten years later and I wound up getting an undergraduate degree in Computer Engineering. I’d like to thank my lego sets growing up for making me always want to create new things and find different configurations.

Another love of my life is music. I love the fact that the arrangement of tones can move my spirit in so many ways. I listen to all different genres – be it old classics of the 40s/50s/60s, to the classic rock of the 60s/70s growing up listening to what my parents listened to. Also growing up I rode in the car singing to tunes of the 80s, of the rock tunes to the likes of styx, foreigner, and journey. As I became older I discovered grunge and the 90s pop tunes that were popular of the age. Lately I stick to new music mainly in the alternative rock genre, but I’m known to pick up the top 20 and sing to it since they seem to be so bloody catchy some times. Let me leave you with a bit of what I mean about how a tune can move you…

This has pretty much been a long rant letting the world know what I feel about life, what life has to offer, and how I plan on improving said life. Taking a day at a time I need to appreciate the small things that the world has to offer and make the best of each and every day.

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