PAX ’12 Goodness

Ξ May 3rd, 2012 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Moo, PAX |

“Hi there, long time poster, first time caller.  My name is Ryan and I’m a gamer.”

PAX tickets went on sale a couple of weeks ago and I was lucky enough to get tickets ordered the first day.  I hear now that tickets are sold out for the 3 day passes.  Tough luck (

Last year was the my first year attending pax and I broke my “PAX virginity.”  This was also the time that I first met my now girlfriend and love of my life.  I’d say this is a rather big event for me now and I’m excited for this year and many years to come.

I never really posted about how last year went and thought I’d share a few stories on my blog.  Right off the bat things were kind of hectic when we rolled into town late on Thursday.  We dropped off our stuff and then headed over to a local pub for a Harry Potter pub crawl )  I spend too much money, drank too much alcohol and passed out that night.  All in all, good times!

The next day, hungover was spent attending the event and enjoying all the pretty sights and grabbing cool swag.  I got to see upcoming games and try out a few of them.  The next couple of days went like this and I saw many awesome goodies, but the one thing that sticks out in my memory was the PAXtra life party at the Fox Sports Bar & Grill.  This was when I first met my girl and I fell in love at first sight.  This year I’m definately going to be getting tickets for the party.  I’m excited to go this year with my girl!  Many a things to introduce her to and exhibits to see.  3

Does anyone else have PAX stories to tell?

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RE: Just Wow!

Ξ December 27th, 2011 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Moo |

I thought I would give my two cents on my thoughts on something sweeping the internet currently regarding the gaming scene. In case you haven’t already read about it, Penny arcade published an article about a reader who submitted an e-mail string into PA that contained a conversation they had with the folks at “Ocean Marketing.” The string contained some of the most terrible customer service that I’ve seen.  Being someone who is employed in a support role I felt the need to share this.

Link to Article

The e-mail started out as a simple request of a customer asking for an ETA on when their product would get shipped. In case you were wondering, the product in question is a retarded looking controller called “the avenger” controller.  Link to their website.  The support individual was rather non-informative during the entire first bit of the conversation and was basically on the standpoint of “it will get here when it gets here.”  The customer just wanted to know if he would receive it before christmas time because it was promised to be shipped days prior.

What SHOULD have happened is the company state what the issue was along with some sort of apology and not give an asinine response of “it’s on a boat, stuck in customs, there are many people wanting this and you’ll have to wait.” But that was not the case… The e-mail string continued to non-stop badgering from the company to the customer making personal attacks and claiming that they were holier-than-thou.

Luckily the customer contacted Penny Arcade and Gabe had his two cents to add. He was included on the e-mail string and things really got interesting. Back and forth the person at Ocean Marketing claimed he was hot shit and Penny Arcade couldn’t do anything to him. Little does he know the power of the internet…

I’m not sure what is going to become of this, but I’m hoping it spawns at least a public apology from the company to the customer. I highly doubt it, but we shall see.  At least it will provide me with some entertainment as the issue presses on.

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Another turn around the bend…

Ξ November 24th, 2010 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Moo |

So here we are again. Same situation a year later. Hell, possibly a decade later where we see the same tale of Ryan repeat itself. Self deprecating lifestyle of solitude. Living alone partly by choice and partly because he is afraid of failure. That’s the honest truth of it all, you know.

In growing up I’ve always gotten the overwhelming sense of guilt not to fail. The type of guilt that I’ll feel that it is my fault if I take a huge chance by laying it all on the line and then in some catastrophic event I’ll lose it all. In some places I’ve learned to let slide through not being the best throughout school because I didn’t see the point in it. I take a situation and think “what does it take to succeed?” and more often than not I find that just getting by is the key to succeeding.

One awful shortcoming I’ve found is that I don’t have any companionship and I don’t know where to begin in solving that. I suppose that the main solution would be to just stop the charade of being a fatty and finding solace in masturbation and eating and drinking alcohol. That really isn’ the solution to life’s problems. No matter how much I try and make it work it isn’t enough.

I look at my friend’s fucked up situation and all the drama he went through. You know what? I think it takes drama to make things work. I can just sit beside in the bleachers saying “Oh they’re going to fail! Give it another year or two and blammo!” Fuck that. You know what? Shit happening is what keeps you together. It means you have history. It means you have purpose.

I want purpose.

At the moment I an engineer on a team of individuals that support a software product. One software product that I honestly feel is pretty damn simple and I could make something similar and market It for myself. Now that’s not legal since I’m legally bound to not compete with my company. I’m not saying I’m about to go out there but what I am saying is that I COULD do it. Why with my technical and software expertise could I not end up designing the next best thing? Sure it takes time and money, but the truth of it really is that It just takes time. The money part works it’s way out eventually. Saying that “Oh there is too much competition out there” is another bullshit excuse. The leaders of tech did not get there by chance. They did it through hard work and determination.

So here is my list of things I want to do that I’ve outlined here…

  • Realize that failure is okay. It is only failure if you don’t pick yourself back up and start over. I did this with my old job. I thought losing my job at Tek was a failure on my part and that it was a failure not to have them hire me back. That’s not a fucking failure. That was there loss and their choice solely. I had a great experience in my job thereafter. Met some great people, got to have tons of laughs, several good times and bad, and generally just enjoy life for what it was. Sure I had hard times throughout this also, but I worked through them and feel better for experiencing this.
  • Your life will repeat itself and that is fine. Just keep trotting through the worst of it and you’ll find a better tomorrow.
  • Work on finding someone to love. Each day try and meet somebody new, even if it is difficult, just know that you’ll feel better because of it.
  • You can succeed. Work on goals and seeing through to them. Follow through with your plan to develop software. It doesn’t need to be a fulltime thing, even if you are just an hour out of your day looking up a programming language, or fiddling with some scripts – it’s still more than you’re doing now.
  • Become fit and learn to love yourself for who you are. Diet more, eat better foods. Your body is the only one you’ll have. Take care of it and don’t let food be the stressor in your life, but enjoy it and exercise daily. Even if just 15 minutes to start for the first few months – ITS MORE THAN YOU ARE DOING NOW AND EVERY LITTLE BIT COUNTS.

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Ξ July 24th, 2010 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Moo, Road to 100 |

I got to thinking now about my life again and what progresses I have made.

One good thing I can think about is that I can judge my success on material things. I have a decent car, a great computer, a kick-ass bed, and a roof over my head. The same can’t be said for everyone.

This is an interesting concept – How do we measure success? Are material goods really an accurate assessment of success? Mr. Leisuresuit in his mercedes could be the loneliest man in the world and contemplating suicide. A scenario such as that does not sound too successful to me.

Then some may also pose the question: “Do we have to be successful?” I find that to be a retarded question. Yes, it is human nature to strive to be successful! I suppose if you MUST stray from the pack on this one, go right ahead. Mediocrity in life is one route to take.

Going back to me for a bit here, I don’t think I’m all that successful. I don’t see plans through past fruition. Take my “lose 100lbs” goal for example. Month by month I’ve really stayed around the same weight as I was before. Only now am I trying this out again since I started months ago. I do have one caveat to my original plan though. They way I’m built and my body shape I don’t think I’m going to be one of the skinny fellows. Instead I should probably do a little cardio and more weight lifting. This will probably end up giving me more muscle mass which will burn some weight off, but put more back on in the end. I doubt I can do more than I am now, but using weight as a gauge of success probably will not cut it.

I think I’ll end my thoughts here. I’m just trying to figure things out again in this silly little world we live in. I have some other ideas so perhaps you’ll see another post soon.

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Ξ July 20th, 2010 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Moo |

This fourth I went and spent some time with family to watch fireworks, etc.  I thought I’d share one pic of my cousin Holly.  She looks like shes up to something.

Here’s another pic of my cousin Josh as he eagerly waits for fireworks to begin.

Then there is Nick who was feeling some pain…

And here as the night rolls on, their father shows them how he’s going to light up some fireworks.

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Ξ July 16th, 2010 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Moo |

I’ve started a new blog. points to it now.  It will be more of a place to talk about techy stuff and this blog  will continue to host my random thoughts, whatever they may be.

Check it out!

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Robot Love

Ξ July 16th, 2010 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Moo |

Information in the modern age is a strange monster. We have instant access to the internet and this giant collection of information and the ability to obtain answers is something that has changed out lifestyles in this day and age.

I currently work in the IT Support industry. It is a pretty fair assumption to say that I sit in front of a computer ALL DAY long. What I use it for is not only for work use, but for loading my brain with so much information that I can’t quite make out half of what I read when trying to recall later. Best thing about that is that it is still readily available to me if I have to look something up again.

With this influx of information we have the masses of people who refuse to or don’t catch on easily of where to find information. The market for this business is rather substantial. Learning the internet and its intricacies is a pretty big feat. If it isn’t a part of your life like it is mine I can see how some may have difficulties learning how to use it.

There are then the companies and people who decide to prey upon those unaware. Scams out there that to the trained eye are blatantly obvious, but to many they fall victim to the “too-good-to-be-trues.” Say you have your grandmother or grandfather using their internet. They go to a certain website and get a pop-up that asks for their e-mail. They automatically think “oh hey, sure in order to get to this website I need to enter my address.” Spammed. Another occasion is on the installation of software from prompt of a script in a website or annoying software. This is where Internet Explorer is the devil since ActiveX is evil. By all means, if you feel like having 100 toolbars on your browser, feel free.

I hear stories of this happening from friends and family. The sad part is that many people don’t understand the gaping lack of security they just introduced.

As a general guideline, I tell people “less is better” in the lines of what software you install.  For instance say you install a program for your ISP – Did you really need that installed?  Or was this just a way so they could generate more revenue by loading bloatware on your system and having you use the websites they set out for you.  Think also of a program that might appear to be innocent, downloading a downloader toolbar or a search toolbar for use on your browser.  Chances are you didn’t need it and it is most likely that will log your browsing history or bloat your browser from the resources it uses up.  Just ask yourself “Is this necessary?”   More often than not I get tired of my OS bogging itself down due to it gaining clutter over time.  It is at these times that I just wipe my hard drive and start over.


On the subjects of advancements I’m not simply saying this is just for the “internet” alone. Technology today has advanced so rapidly to the degree that fifty years ago you would see these types of multi-use devices in science fiction magazines. I’m not stating any new revelation, just saying this as a matter of fact. My phone isn’t the most spectacular thing in the world, but this single device, if it was created over a half a century ago it would have started a revolution. Take our technological advances in the last century in retrospect. The US has only been around for 230 some odd years, but given progress of technology by the US and the world in the last two centuries leads me to believe that within this next century we will see breakthroughs that will astonish even me in my lifetime.

So cheers to progression! May we see advancement in my lifetime that I will never have believed to become a reality.  Just remember to use caution and common sense with these new tools.

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Let the sun shine!

Ξ July 9th, 2010 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Moo |

So summer has finally peaked in the northwest.  We didn’t have much of a spring due to it raining the entire time so i wasn’t able to enjoy the cool spring air and blue skies.  Regardless, we went from 65 and rainy to 97 and clear sky.  I kind of want to complain about not being able to have an “in-between” season, but I guess the weather isn’t much to complain about, as it is out of one’s control.  Especially complaining about it on a blog.

As a result of this new weather though, I was unable to sleep last night due to sweating my ass off in my 90 degree room.  So that was fun getting up at 6am today for work.  But it’s friday!


I haven’t been around on my site in a while since I’ve been really busy.  Not a whole lot of “coping mechanisms” going on here, since this is a place I like to come to rant, I suppose I’ll let you know what is up with me:

Currently I am in the running for a position in Seattle.  It is part development, part application deployment / troubleshooting.  Mostly a java / linux-unix admin position by the sounds of it.  I think it sounds like a great opportunity, but I’m not getting my hopes crushed as I have before.  Especially with opportunities I had in the bag, but didn’t end up turning out for me in the long run.

As a result I have plenty of research to do on my part.  One reason for this is I need to research what type of technologies they use and also what type of technology I might need to know to complete the in person interview I have next week with them.  I’m sure they’ll go through a series of technical questions to find out how knowledgeable I am.  Good thing I admin a linux server on the side )

Other than that I have a wedding to go to tomorrow that should be pretty epic since there is a boat ride on the columbia gorge afterwards.

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A Day In The Life.

Ξ June 4th, 2010 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Moo |

So I woke up this morning 2 hours early. That was the start of a bad morning. To make amends I decided to fill myself with carbs and ate two bagels. That should do me for another 6 hours until it is lunchtime (

I’m getting an overwhelming sense of wanting to move away. Be it possibly Austin, TX or somewhere like it. Just not in the northwest. I’m tired of this life I’m in right now and if I moved north to Seattle to live with friends / work there I don’t think it would help all that much.

Just in a permanent funk right now and not entirely sure how to get past it. If I were to find a good job in the town of portland then sure, that’d be a good step up. But I highly doubt that is possible due to the shitty economy we have now in the northwest.

Perhaps I just need to take some time to plan out what I need to do in order to be happy. Now my current wishes are: Job, lose weight, and find the one girl that makes me happy. Notice how none of those are material things? Probably because I’m not a material person. I just like to have my specific necessary things in my life. Working computer, TV, place to sleep, clothes, etc.

I know I’m rambling on so I’ll stop now. Just wanted to let the world know I am considering my options.

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Here’s lookin’ at you, kid.

Ξ June 4th, 2010 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Moo |

So once again I get in the funk where I think about others and their relationships. The stories I hear of others’ problems and setbacks, of life’s little journey’s and how others seem to get to the point where they are at.

Honestly people fascinate me, but on the other hand I’m a bit disappointed. It is some bit of phenomenon that I can’t quite explain. I get not necessarily, but certainly annoyed at stupidity and at some times feel some sort of superiority towards others for it. But at the same time I feel this act makes me feel left out and somehow I am envious at others for being happy. Happy because they have someone to go home with and really open up and share their heart with. Me? I have myself. I often catch myself running off on some long conversation because I am trying to troubleshoot something and find the next answer in my long saga in life.

Regardless, I’m working on it. I’ve stated my plan before, but my solid goal is to find a new life entirely. I almost want to start over. Do a solid do-over so I can obtain what I want out of life. But at the same time I know things and have lessons learned that I don’t feel I could do without. For instance I graduated from college three years ago in Computer Engineering. It was a tough field and a tough degree. There were times where I was about to give up and not see it through to the end. Sure it took me an extra year, but I finished it outright and was on my merry way in life. Then the economy took a turn for the worst and decided to fuck my plans up. There lies my problems entirely in adapting to new challenges.

I’ve been overweight for the latter part of my life and I despise the fact that I am this way. Regardless I need to take a look at it and move on and make the best of it / change for the better. I’m making a conscious effort at changing – No joke. I find myself slipping every once and a while, but to be honest I just need to take the plunge and MOVE ON.

To quote Bruce Lee: “If you always put limits on what you can do, physical or anything else, it’ll spread over into the rest of your life. It’ll spread into your work, into your morality, into your entire being. There are no limits. There are plateaus, but you must not stay there, you must go beyond them. If it kills you, it kills you. A man must constantly exceed his level.”

My life has included several things that I thoroughly enjoy. The fact is, I enjoy filming – I enjoy narrating a story. Even if I wouldn’t get the chance for that, I enjoy the filming part and the editing part of the process. Video production is definitely a career I could be a part of, but I don’t have the slightest idea of how to get there. I have a knack for technology and if given a black box with a number of connections and specifics that the device should do, most likely I can come up with a way to connect it. Call it a gift, but I call it an inherent trait of mine.

With filming and photography comes the fact that I appreciate works of art through film. Movies are more of an obsession and I can honestly say I’m a bit of a fanatic. The epitome of the couch potato is what I would describe myself. I’m a fan of anywhere of the silent Buster Keaton and Charlie Chaplin talkies to the modern day epics that we see today. I’ve seen plenty of films from the 40s/50s and 60s/70s on my own curiosity and enjoyed them thoroughly. I’d say that films from those periods are a greater part of my movie collection in general. “Touch of Evil” would probably be my favorite film noir film. I can’t say I’ve only stuck to US films either. Antonioni, Fellini, Fritz Lang, or Goddard made amazing movies for their time. Movies that leave you with the sense that you’d just blown your mind. L’Avventura is one of these movies. You watch it and are amazed at how well composed the shots are. Sure it is a movie with a lack of narrative, but the simple fact that you are watching an amazing work of art just leaves me speechless every time I see it. Move on from this period to the 60s/70s and you open an entire genre that I can never get enough of. Honestly I should stop talking about movies in this part of my post because I could go on forever. Let me just end saying that for sentimental reasons, “Princess Bride” is my favorite movie of all time.

Then there is the part of my life of what I graduated with. I thought that engineering would be a good fit for me. I enjoyed math growing up and loved science and the fact of explaining the word around me and the fact that I have the ability to create I found absolutely fascinating. Move ten years later and I wound up getting an undergraduate degree in Computer Engineering. I’d like to thank my lego sets growing up for making me always want to create new things and find different configurations.

Another love of my life is music. I love the fact that the arrangement of tones can move my spirit in so many ways. I listen to all different genres – be it old classics of the 40s/50s/60s, to the classic rock of the 60s/70s growing up listening to what my parents listened to. Also growing up I rode in the car singing to tunes of the 80s, of the rock tunes to the likes of styx, foreigner, and journey. As I became older I discovered grunge and the 90s pop tunes that were popular of the age. Lately I stick to new music mainly in the alternative rock genre, but I’m known to pick up the top 20 and sing to it since they seem to be so bloody catchy some times. Let me leave you with a bit of what I mean about how a tune can move you…

This has pretty much been a long rant letting the world know what I feel about life, what life has to offer, and how I plan on improving said life. Taking a day at a time I need to appreciate the small things that the world has to offer and make the best of each and every day.

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6.2.10 – Blergh

Ξ June 3rd, 2010 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Moo |

I hit the lowest I’ve seen me so far. Basically it meant that I’m 1/10th the way to my goal. I know it might have been some water weight that had to do with some of it, but hell I guess I’ll take it as an accomplishment.

1/10th High Five!

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